where have i been?? aka lame filler post

New actual thought-put-into post coming soon. But what's a good tv show without some dumb filler episodes? Here's a poem that i wrote a few nights ago, and am actually kind of proud of. 

dead.

could you feel your heartbeat in your throat?
don't lie, i know you could
i felt it against my palms
through your stiff collar
while i held on for dear life

would you tell me you love me as i wept over you?
don't lie, i know you would
our blood was never more than red colors:
simple pain and complex love
too bad you're colorblind

did you see stars before you drifted away?
don't like, i know you always did
you glimmer and shine like the night sky
but from a billion light years away
i know what you really are

dead.